Give up

Another long  pause,

I’ve been scared of you

I'm with my fear

Some emotions are like caves

It’s hard to stay in

Staying at the entrance is even worse

mundane it will become if I give up

The power of self analysis already revealed to me what will happen

It is already happening

If I gave up who I am,

the worst parts of me will be at the front

I will get paranoid

I will worry about the life of others

I will consume the life of my children like it were mine

I’m tired of my self and my little obsessions

Obsessions over nothing, that are allowing my time to be taken away from me

There is no space here for my happiness

I'm so scared to try

Even if my God put me in the most comfortable position to write

The only thing I do is clean and complain

I will start my work today

I will not lose you

2023