Mind

The mind , to observe the mind.

What is observing the mind?

My mind has gotten sick

I'm trying to bring her back

She has been so repetitive,

making a monster out of everyone

Martin won't cheat

The doctor does not want to harm my baby

My friends won't betray me

I can trust nature

Nothing will be taken away from me

Nothing that  is necessary

My monkey mind is eating me alive

It’s not my minds fault

Her job is to keep me alive

How do I make her less neurotic?

The only tool I have now is: don't feed the loops

The loops will train the mind to keep looping

Is the thing talking to the mind Awareness ?

And the one that acts the ego?

The untrained mind is a neurotic mother

The uncontrolled ego is a spoiled little boy

And every time there is fear, those two come together and go crazy

The solution is a healthy body

And to not feed the loops.

2023

Give up

Another long  pause,

I’ve been scared of you

I'm with my fear

Some emotions are like caves

It’s hard to stay in

Staying at the entrance is even worse

mundane it will become if I give up

The power of self analysis already revealed to me what will happen

It is already happening

If I gave up who I am,

the worst parts of me will be at the front

I will get paranoid

I will worry about the life of others

I will consume the life of my children like it were mine

I’m tired of my self and my little obsessions

Obsessions over nothing, that are allowing my time to be taken away from me

There is no space here for my happiness

I'm so scared to try

Even if my God put me in the most comfortable position to write

The only thing I do is clean and complain

I will start my work today

I will not lose you

2023